I’m beginning to realize that I’m a “work talker”. I started a new job about a year and a half ago with a new much smaller company than the one I was previously at, and it’s become obvious to me that I need to hold down funny pop culture conversations in order to do work. I KNOW, I know that sounds crazy right? But it’s true! At first I thought it was just quiet because I was new, no one really knew me yet, so there wasn’t much inter office chats going on. But a year and half later it might be even more quiet now than it was when I started (!) And I’m struggling with the silence.
I need conversations in order to focus myself. I must have my lips moving in order for my brain to functioning, even as I’m writing this blog post, I’m actually talking myself through the typing! Am I the only person in the world who functions this way? Maybe it’s because my background is sales and I have always enjoyed the thinking on my feet nature of sales, or maybe I’m just not wired correctly. The days at work and in life when I accomplish the most are the days when I have really great conversations with people. It doesn’t even matter what we talk about just as long as I am talking to people! I used to think I was just a day dreamer and talking kept my brain busy while I completed other tasks but I am noticing now the less I talk during the day the more mistakes I make, the less attentive I am and, the less interested I am.
It’s so weird! Yet then there are things that I really like doing ALONE with no one to talk to. Like working out, and running. I know some people love going to the gym with a partner yet I find that’s not the best for me. I like to be alone with my thoughts and make to-do lists in my head while I’m sweating! That’s my moment of ZEN, the quiet time I get when I run or take a class. Yes there are things going on and others people conversation but I like not having to be involved in them.
Like race runs for example, I hate when I’m in a big group of people I know before a race. I find my heads not in it. I like when I don’t know anyone and I can clear my mind for what is about to happen. I am a visualizer. I like to think about what will happen before it happens. How it could go and what my course of action would be, IF A then B, IF B then C kind of things. Yet at work it’s exactly the opposite I need the distraction to get the job done?
I’m not sure what this means- I’m just hoping I’m not alone! And that was my case of the Monday’s.